I’ll get to the first point of the title in a bit. The second part simply means, this is Matt.
Kelly recently joked, but seriously, about making some sense of our relationship after “almost ten years of marriage”. Life will teach you some things, if you are participating. Kelly and I have a cycle we work with. She tends to get pretty worked up (positive or negative) pretty quickly about an issue. I will calm her down and assure her things will work out. From that point, I will work very hard to make sure things will work out. Most of the time things will not quite work out, and in my despair Kelly will assure me that there is a purpose. After that I will rebound, and the whole cycle keeps going. I’ve had serious regrets about things not working out completely. Now I think a real conclusion might be too much to ask many times.
I want to thank everyone for their support. I’m sure many reading this support us both financially and spiritually. We both wish we could do a better job letting everyone know what it means to us to be fully supported by those who not only believe in Neema House, but also believing the we can manage this whole situation. Michael and Dorris just returned to the United States. Honestly, I’m jealous. Nothing I deal with is normal. I never get to say “Hi” and have someone say “Hi” back. In Tanzanian Swahili you first greet a person with a typical Swahili greeting, and after they respond, they will greet you again with “the greeting of the month”. The second greeting ranges from funny to straight up Davy Jones dragging you down to his locker. By this I mean that it is incomprehensible. It’s really a game of who’s in or out. Sometimes I can laugh it off. Other times it ruins my day. From there you have to answer questions about how your house is, how your kids are, and how your wife is. The way this it is asked will depend on if the asker is from Meru, Kilimanjaro, city Masai, or tribal Masai. Naturally, I must respond differently to each. This may seem trivial, but after 9 months I still don’t know how to respond to each one. This is only part of it.
In 36 hours we will be returning from a Masai Village where we have saved the lives of 4 babies and an abandoned mother of twins. We are taking out two babies to visit their extended family, and also taking out the mother minus her twins. They simply will not survive, let alone thrive in a remote village. The mother and her older children will be given clothing and food to help with the situation of the father running out. Backing up to when I went out to pick up the mother and her babies; I was told about a cave where there were ancient paintings. There wasn’t much time, and it didn’t seem appropriate to visit this site at that time. I told our village contact that I wanted to visit the cave this time out. He informed me that I will have to pay someone from the village to takes us there. You may not perceive anything significant about this… but it broke me. I really have to pay to see the backyard at this point?!?! I have no doubt about your gratefulness, but I need something more in this situation. Life in Arusha is nothing but giving. It’s not only the people I’m working with who are constantly asking, but perfect strangers who literally say “give me money”. It’s not really the fault of this village that I am where I am personally. But truth be told, I am where I am. Whether you pray for grace for me or mercy for village, it is appreciated. I don’t have a specific desire, but I am up at 3 a.m. to pour out my heart. Whatever Yahweh has for me, I need it soon. I could really use some tangible thankfulness here. I could use a day off of giving. I could use a day of rest.
“Reveal Your work to your Your servants, and Your splendor to their children. And let the pleasantness of Yahweh our Elohim be upon us, and confirm the work of our hands for us; O confirm the work of our hands!”
- Psalms 90:16-17